Motionless

Do you ever feel like sometimes progress just stands still?

My motivation to run has gone up and down and all around lately. I know that the weather-- the activity's energy and feeling in the heat--has been part of it. Hot conditions are an entirely new beast for me to tackle and become comfortable with... I know I am not there yet. It's significantly harder for me to judge my own body's signals because I have never pushed myself in this weather before. Truth be told, rarely have I ever been one to push myself to the limits of full exertion. I am just beginning to understand what the varying levels of exertion my body could handle in spring temperatures. I'm not ready for the seasons to change.

My challenge to lose the extra campaign pounds is now one mostly within my own head... the side challenges are a nice benefit, but ultimately they have lost the appeal to motivate me. The last time I got on a scale I was within the right BMI measurements for my height. Taking off the pounds is not crucial; it is merely something I would like. The question in my head is how much do I want it? I have to answer that question every day for myself and remain steadfast in the answer--saying no to foods I would love to devour but make little dietary or nutional sense for me to eat while I try to restrict calories. I definitely haven't created habit, so I wonder if it really is sustainable... especially if the scale betrays me with disappointing numbers. All of this effort ought to bear results.

I'd like in all areas of my life for the motion to be soaring. I will have to settle for taking the steps to put that flight in motion.


Time: 28:35
Place: The Hilly Quarry
Weather: high 80s
Distance: 2.7 miles
Feeling: Argh! I'm a total wuss!
Overall grade: B-